Dedicated to/on behalf of my best friend, confidante and soul sister
To The Man Who Emotionally Destroyed Her: You’ll Pay For It Like This
Dear Man (who tried so hard to break her heart),
Hope you remember her. The girl who loved you more than herself, the girl who made you her entire world. May be she was good for your ego, some kind of an achievement or a trophy that you could brag about in front of your friends, maybe you liked knowing that someone was always available to answer your calls regardless of the time and situation, may be you liked seeing someone trying that hard for you.
Her friends shouted, “Are you blind? He doesn’t love you and never will, why can’t you see what he is doing to you?” Little did they know that she was not blind. In reality, she was a coward, coward enough to accept her mistake.
When you entered her life, she was so terrified to let her guard down, she used to build some kind of a wall around herself so that no one could hurt her, you came and promised her that you will be there to help her and slowly you broke that wall brick by brick.
She finally told you her darkest secrets and let you see her deepest wounds. She told you that she was getting addicted to you, to your presence, to your company, your words and she didn’t want this addiction to turn into love. You remained at the top of her chatting list. From sweet morning messages to good night texts, you shared every tiny detail of your day with her,talked about sweet nothings all day, all night.
You shouldn’t have made her fall for you when you knew that you weren’t going to catch her.
You always said the right things at the right time till one day she finally realized that you were literally the person she always wanted to be with.
Soon you started changing and she stood there puzzled about your behavior. Your long texts got shorter by the second. Everything about her that you previously admired now irritated the hell out of you. You didn’t have time for her anymore and she started blaming herself, thinking that she may have done something wrong.
She kept waiting day and night to hear from you and you were too busy to hear her break down on the phone.
She kept losing herself every time you didn’t answer her call, every. She was always available for you and that bothered you so you chose your plans over her always.
Today she is feeling sick and really tired, tired of finding reasons behind everything just to stay with you. You made her believe that she could be ‘someone’s sometimes’ but could never be ‘someone’s forever’.
The journey of loving you was never easy for her, she kept giving up on her self-respect because you were too stubborn to let go off your ego. Finally the day arrived when her biggest fears turned into reality. You decided to leave her by saying, “I’m scared of getting into relationships, I’m scared I’ll screw up” You know what, your words were enough to tear her apart in a thousand pieces. Nothing can be worse than making a person feel so loved and wanted and then Just.Leaving!!…. She still wondered if it would have hurt any less had you not lied to her about how you felt when she trusted you by telling you how she felt about you.
You made a soul die. She loved you, she still does but now it’s time for her to close this chapter and let in the better things that had always been waiting for her.
One thing I can promise you, you will look for her in the people you love. One day she’ll be the one not answering your calls, one day she’ll just scroll down your post and status because they’ll not matter.You’ll search for her hand whenever you feel lost. You’ll miss her voice when you badly want someone to listen to you.
One day you’ll miss her, her texts, her attention, her efforts, the way she apologized after every fight even if it was not her mistake because for her there was no point in winning an argument over you. You will miss how she cared, her love because it’s rare what she had offered you.
There are a lot of people like you and the day you’ll meet another you, you’ll want her the same way she did.
You’ll regret everything and you’d wish you could apologize. And she’ll not be there looking at her phone screen for hours and hours, waiting for your one text to fix everything.
I promise, you’ll realize it but that will be too late because till then she’d have unloved you with every fibre of her being. Today she realises her worth. Now she’ll not settle for mediocre love, she’s worth so much more. She wants someone to love her the way she loved you. She wants to be the reason for someone to want to be a better person, the best that they can ever be. You should know,the good ones never come easy, but it’ll hurt to see when someone else treats her the way you should probably have ,but obviously didn’t.
Now she knows you can never be that someone. So losing you is not actually a loss for her, she had lost someone who shouldn’t be there in the first place but you have lost someone who did everything to keep you in that place.
I’m sorry for your loss, my friend!!